Surpise!

Hi baby :3

Gulat ka nanaman noh? Hehe. Medyo fail yung surprise ko kasi dapat si kuya Keb kukuha niyan eh!!! Hays.

Hirap na hirap ako maghanap ng regalo para sayo, di ko kasi alam kung anong trip mo hahaha baka di mo magustuhan or what :<

You’re probably wondering what’s with all of this. First of all, gusto ko bakit ba?! Jk. I want you to know that you’re special to me. Alam mo naman na yun for sure pero I never really told you directly. Hindi nga ako umamin na gusto kita eh, alam ko naman din na halata na hahaha. Di ko alam bakit ako pa talaga nagustuhan mo. Pero ako, I have a lot to tell you. (cringey letter I know sorry hehe)

At first, I didn’t really mind talking to you noon. Nung napadalas na, I thought you were just being friendly kasi lagi kitang sinusuportahan kapag may stream ka. Nahiya pa ako nung hiningi mo Twitter tsaka Snapchat ko, pati nung nilagay mo ako sa group niyo. Remember when I introduced you to Sky? Kapag nag-aaya ako, you would leave your friends pa para makalaro tayo. Di ko masyadong inisip yun pero I thought it was sweet, though medyo nahiya rin ako haha. Then I’d start waiting for your calls. Dun ko lang narealize na crush na pala kita. Akala ko hanggang dun lang kasi kagagaling ko lang sa heartbreak nun so I was still trying to heal. Di rin tumagal, that crush turned into something more. Alam kong online lang tayo nagkakilala pero every day, lumalalim yung nararamdaman ko para sayo. You’re different from all the guys I've liked before. Lahat ng ginagawa ko para sa kanila, ikaw naman yung gumagawa para sa akin. Kung sa mga previous love interests ko ako yung laging nag-effort, this time it’s not just me. I feel that way because you always find time for me, you always check on me, you always want to hear whatever I have to say, and more importantly you’ve never made me feel na ako lang yung interesado. Ang sarap sa feeling na sinasabihan mo ako ng "I love you" out of nowhere. Natutunaw ako tuwing ngumingiti ka kapag nakikita mo ako. Sa mga oras na kung ano-ano na pumapasok sa isip ko, you always give me the assurance I need and you don't even know it. You always make me feel accepted for the person I am. You’re the only one who compliments me a lot. As someone with a very low self-esteem, I really appreciate that. I know I’m not pretty like other girls but thank you for coming to my life and always reminding me that I’m pretty in my very own way.

Sorry sa mga nagawa ako na hindi mo ginusto. Sorry sa mga nagawa ko na ikinagalit at ikinaselos mo. Believe me when I say na hindi ako ganun. Please trust me. I would never want to hurt you kasi alam ko rin yung feeling na yun. You don’t have to worry about other guys because you’re not in a competition against anyone else. Ikaw at ikaw lang ang pipiliin ko. Sana kung magkaroon man ulit tayo ng problema, maayos natin agad. I will do my best to understand you when days get dark and I will be there for you when you need me.

Do you know why I picked that music box? Because I couldn’t help falling in love with you (kiligin ka pls HAHA). Hindi ka mahirap mahalin, and I want you to know that. You mean a lot to me. I’m thankful na nakaabot ka sa 2020 ko. I don’t know if you’ve noticed this, but I want us to move further. I wanna make it official between us. Kahit lagi mong sinasabi sa akin na love mo ako, nahihirapan pa rin akong lumugar minsan but that's not your fault. I never tell you na nagseselos ako kasi lagi kong iniisip na wala naman talaga tayong label. Pero okay lang. Natatakot lang talaga ako na baka maging tulad 'to sa iba na puro "almost" and ayoko nun. Di ko lang talaga alam kung paano i-bring up yung topic na yan. Alam mo namang madali akong mahiya, also ayokong ma-pressure ka dahil sa gusto ko. It’s still up to you. Whatever we have right now, I’m happy with that. I’m happy with you.

I hope that whenever you play the music box, it will remind you of me and how much I love you. Bahala ka na lang kung biglang tumugtog yan at 3 am. HAHAHAHAHAHA JK

Merry Christmas babe!

I love you.

One last thing: scan this on your phone.

If it doesn't work or kung naka-charge phone mo, click this instead.

( Made with Carrd )